The Daily Blog: Thursday, October 18th, 2018

In today’s blog I’m going to be discussing why I’m not attending Blizzcon and my decision to accept a full-time position as a deli clerk rather than going back to school. 

So a little while ago I was going through a very rough patch and it wasn’t until recently when I got my first job in a while that I started getting contacted by many employers with great job offers. One came up recently that sparked my interest which included paid sick and vacation days, retirement options including 401K, medical care, a workers union, and much more. So I figured I’d give it a shot and apply for that job. 

The good news is I got the job but the bad news is I had to cancel my plans to travel down to California and attend Blizzcon until next year. This was a huge bummer because I had been counting down the days until the event. However, if I would have decided to go to Blizzcon rather than accept the job I would have been hurting myself long-term. 

Thing is that I don’t expect anything to come from my content creation, streaming, or anything I do online. It took a lot for me to reach the point of accepting this. Several people I consider friends here who you may know are prominent figures in our community helped me understand the decision I had to make. 

Over the next year I will be making enough money to move out and live on my own without the subsidized rent I pay to my mother. At twenty-five years old that’s a good step to take. I’ve even been able to start making enough money to get her an iPhone X on an Unlimited Everything plan from AT&T; it feels great to be able to give back even if it does cost a lot.

Though I wish things had turned out different I think long-term things will turn out better and there may even be more success in what I do online being that I will be in a better mental state working than sitting around at my computer all day. 

Heck, my own mom even pointed out that my entire demeanor has changed; that’s a good thing. Because, if I would have stayed the course and passed up this job opportunity I’d still be in what’s considered extreme-poverty (a state of financial affairs well bellow the poverty line). This could have lead to me becoming homeless at some point and completely SOL.

I think the most important thing I’ve learned is the damage of self-pity and having an expectation that folks will give a fuck enough to make a difference that helps you get over what you gotta get over. This is not the case and you are several thousand percent more likely to be okay if you do something for yourself rather than wait on others to do something for you. This is something that I think is crucial to understanding and what sets self-made people apart from those who live off of hand-outs and various forms of welfare. 

Now don’t get me wrong I understand those folks who truly need the support and there’s gotta be a safety net in place for them. But you owe it to yourself to do something for yourself otherwise any effort you’ve invested or gains you’ve made will be lost and for nothing. Which makes the situation a catch twenty-two. 

People like to invest or give to things that are likely to reproduce high value stuff; this includes other people. So if you’re not living in a way that makes you valuable or worth something then you’re less likely to get any support from others because you’re a high-risk investment with all signs of little return on investment (ROI). 

Money is a limited resource to the majority of us so if you’re just not worth money then you’re kinda fucking yourself over. I think a major reason why poverty is so rampant is because of bad mental health care and a lack of people believing in the investment into one’s own worth. You can say all you want that you’re the shit but if the facts say things are otherwise then folks are just gonna be annoyed and you lose credibility. Once you lose credibility you’ve got to earn it back by becoming a high value asset to others.

Think of yourself like a program and consider what you can do for others. If you had a program aka app on your phone that just sat there asking for money, promising things in return, and having no capability to provide that would you spend your money on that app? Fuck no.

But this is only obvious to me on the other side of everything and luckily I had the time to come to this realization. The issue I think people face is not having the luxury of being in a place where they can have enough time to come to this understanding or just not having the mental capability to do so. While the latter is something that would be difficult to solve the other is a bit easier. It comes down to having affordable housing for people that comes with mental health assistance to help folks re-discover the worth of making themselves valueable and useful.

Though this is an entirely different subject that requires it’s own blog post to get into detail with proper citation of sources and facts. Today I’m just writing this all out to help explain why I chose to make the decision I made and the impact that will have on my life. It’s interesting because I know how to live extremely frugally being that I had to live off of the cheapest options for most of my life. So when I start making fourty to fifty thousand a year on my own I’ll be able to invest so much of it I will feel much wealthier than I actually am because how deep with-in my means I will be living. 

This is the sort of thing they should teach in schools but they don’t so I’m saying it here. The sooner you get started practicing an extreme poverty budget for things such as food and various other expenses you’ll notice a lot of money is left over. Don’t eat out, cook at home. Don’t order anything aside from what is nessecary for you to live e.c.t.. Instead of ordering a bottle of water from Starbucks for over two dollars and fifty cents instead ask for their largest size cup of water with ice and spend fifty cents instead putting the money you save aside.

Zin

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